All I can do is wait.

Okay so 2 days ago I had my final uni interview at Middlesex University. That say was one of the weirdest, nicest, worst, and most intense days I've had in a long while.

I only had a 1 hour nap before my 3am bus ride because I was so stressed, I went through my entire wardrobe and my sisters just to get a outfit I liked, and even then I doubted it. I packed and repacked my bag again and again to make sure I had everything. We get on the bus at 3 am and its freezing and get maybe 3 hours sleep before getting into London at 8am. The rest of the day is spent getting coffee (and not being able to work out the toilet door) taking the tube (and panicking when my ticket isn't accepted), walking round London feeling sick and not eating/drinking, and getting to the interview.
Now at the interview, the uni was amazing, it was pretty and airy and we got a free costa off the uni, I did my makeup and put on my heels so I looked acceptable, and then we were showed round the campus which is soooo nice! Then we had a group interview and I panicked like hell afterwards because I thought it would be an 1-1 interview but it wasn't and I couldn't get a read on if I thought I did well or not so when I started leaving I also started to fucking well cry. I hated it, I forced myself to stay composed and not shed a single frigging tear and I nearly exploded. Thank god my sister was there or I would have been a wreck but even then I couldn't just sit down somewhere and cry it out because London is so packed, and I cried on the tube, and when we went for something to eat, and when we were walking around and when I phoned my family and UGH. I couldn't stop crying! I cried a total of 8 times that day. But afterwards my sister took me to the exterior of the Sherlock set and we took pictures which was nice and then we went to see tower bridge, the shard, the gherkin, parliament, big ben, it was so fun! Even though I think my camera accidently broke every image I took that day and I don't know why but I'll sort that later.

Then it was the bus ride home, and I have never loved my mum more because after another freezing, sleep deprived bus ride, she took us to mcdonalds and got us both a large big tasty with bacon meal, and I got home, got into my jammies, got into bed, combined a snuggie, fleece blanket, and my normal quilt to make a mega warm blanket, put game grumps on my pc and FUCKING DESTROYED THAT BURGER. Seriously I ate everything in about 10 minutes, I was proud of myself. Then to cap it all off I slept for 12 hours.

Anyway yesterday I emailed my portfolio to them and only time will tell if I did good enough to get in, but they are my first choice so I sincerely hope so. Especially after 6 panic/anxiety attacks, and eight crying fits, I not going through all that shit for nothing

So yeah, I hope you guys had a good time and I'll upload soon!

Taliah x