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Taliah
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Hi! Welcome to my DA page :) Please look around and have fun :3 Come and find me on:

YouTube (Every so often)
www.youtube.com/user/OsukeChan
Tumblr (All the time)
wingsandpistols.tumblr.com/

Please enjoy! :tighthug:
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Well... Re-reading that last journal certainly was something ^^; I can see now that I was mood swinging something bad. I would go from 'lifes not bad' to 'well im gonna die gay and alone' pretty fucking fast >_<

However, Im not 100% sure but I can say fairly certainly the stress of uni has been getting on top of me. The Uni I want to go to hasn't given a response yet and having to sit on my ass waiting for them to email me is killing me. Im finding it more difficult as I get older to be patient and let things I cant control come around to me but its mental torture waiting around and I like to feel like im making progress. But progress is being made. I have got the idea cemented for my current project at college and I like it, so Im gonna get to scripting it ASAP :D Im also getting good headway on some of the drawings I promised and I should hopefully have one or two done in a week or two. Its not mch progress, but its enough.

And the rest of this mood is probably also down to my sexuality because I do know that my friends and family love me no matter who I date and stuff but still, not knowing what you identify as yourself is such a painful situation and it can really weigh on you. I know I like girls, and I know the only men I have every wanted to sleep with have been fictional or way out of my reach (like celebrities), but I don't feel nothing towards men, I find them attractive and god knows I would make out with a couple if I could. But yeah, losing my virginity at this probably wasn't the wisest choice either at this point XD not that I regret, I definitely don't regret it, but it made me feel just as, if not more confused so Im just spinning myself in circles :'D But oh well, Im much clearer now, I came out to my best and oldest friend and she was super good to me and I love her to bits, and it is such a brilliant reassurance when I remember that she, and the friends like her I've made, will always be there <3

Also I nearly started bawling while we were talking over the phone, hearing the restraint in my own voice amused me :') Im such a baby.

Ill talk to you later with hopefully some good news :)

Byeeeee x
  • Mood: Caring
  • Watching: Game Grumps
  • Eating: Curry

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Well... Re-reading that last journal certainly was something ^^; I can see now that I was mood swinging something bad. I would go from 'lifes not bad' to 'well im gonna die gay and alone' pretty fucking fast >_<

However, Im not 100% sure but I can say fairly certainly the stress of uni has been getting on top of me. The Uni I want to go to hasn't given a response yet and having to sit on my ass waiting for them to email me is killing me. Im finding it more difficult as I get older to be patient and let things I cant control come around to me but its mental torture waiting around and I like to feel like im making progress. But progress is being made. I have got the idea cemented for my current project at college and I like it, so Im gonna get to scripting it ASAP :D Im also getting good headway on some of the drawings I promised and I should hopefully have one or two done in a week or two. Its not mch progress, but its enough.

And the rest of this mood is probably also down to my sexuality because I do know that my friends and family love me no matter who I date and stuff but still, not knowing what you identify as yourself is such a painful situation and it can really weigh on you. I know I like girls, and I know the only men I have every wanted to sleep with have been fictional or way out of my reach (like celebrities), but I don't feel nothing towards men, I find them attractive and god knows I would make out with a couple if I could. But yeah, losing my virginity at this probably wasn't the wisest choice either at this point XD not that I regret, I definitely don't regret it, but it made me feel just as, if not more confused so Im just spinning myself in circles :'D But oh well, Im much clearer now, I came out to my best and oldest friend and she was super good to me and I love her to bits, and it is such a brilliant reassurance when I remember that she, and the friends like her I've made, will always be there <3

Also I nearly started bawling while we were talking over the phone, hearing the restraint in my own voice amused me :') Im such a baby.

Ill talk to you later with hopefully some good news :)

Byeeeee x
  • Mood: Caring
  • Watching: Game Grumps
  • Eating: Curry
America WIP by AKA-Osuke
America WIP
Im sorry its not uch, its not even the full image I just took a cropped part and posted it ^^; Its no where near done but I really like the concept Ive got for it so I thougth I should share it :D Yeah Its pretty obvious I never do pin ups but they are so cuuuuuuuute I couldn't help myself :3 The final image should hopefully be done pretty soon

Laters :)

Srg.Wings
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Ugh stuff is annoying, life is hard, and work is dumb. But an update is due and I will give one!

Okay so happy new year! *trumpets sound everywhere no doubt even though im like 2 weeks late* Not much to say on that apart from I am now 18. Feel a little more broken than usual but whatever such is life I guess. Or I don't know really, broken isn't really what I'm looking for, I think its just the music im listening to. I always get so affected by music its unreal, and this album just brings me down but its absolutely gorgeous I can't turn it off. But yeah, love life is beyond nothing. Empty words generally and meaningless flirting with people way out of my league and who don't even realise I'm flirting with them and would crazy make out with them in a heartbeat if I got the chance but oh well. Ugh this is just painful to re-read but fuck it Im too lazy to go back and edit.

I wont name names on the love life thing cos its dumb, lost my virginity though that was fun, (16/11/2014 for future reference me) eerrrrrm...Applied to Uni, I have 3 interviews coming up which is exciting but I have to make a portfolio which is giving me endless stress. I've told my mates about this and they are sick with hearing it but I can't shake the feeling that I won't be good enough for them which is  really disheartening. Its not an art course im doing either otherwise I would have tons of work to show them, its film so I have so few and of them there are none I can show and be really genuinely proud of. Its so scary being this lost about a part of me I have so much damn enthusiasm for, its alien.

Uni is exciting though, I hope I get in because that would just kick ass and right now its the only thing keeping my work as good as it is. On that note though, money is a bitch at uni so I will be opening commissions up so I can get saving as soon as. I also have a couple images I am working on which I will list at the end because I think if I keep listing things I work on in journals then I will be better motivated or at least reminded to keep working on them.

I lost quite a bit of weight recently too, since I got a Christmas job (which has since been terminated) I ended up losing a ton off me, Im easily a good 4 inches thinner all around really. That helps the self confidence a bit, although I still have my face to deal with which doesn't help me.

Overall life is just ugh I don't know, its not life, I feel blank. My schizophrenia got worse, and so did my D.I.D but honestly they are pretty nice to have. I always have company and someone to talk to, and sometimes they take over for a bit which is nice to just not deal with stuff for a while and Nill can deal with it instead, or Dean can. Its weird talking about them here. I don't think anyone knows about them yet. Maybe 2 people but even then I feel like they thought I was just seeking attention or something. Its strange. I never want to have it dealt with either, I don't want to go to any doctor unless obviously I start to kill or something mad, but if I can live fine with them I want to stay this way. They take care of me and I don't want to be alone, I would die.

Sorry I'm airing a lot of feelings and thoughts right now but its nice to just unload issues like this. Dean is probably getting fed up with hearing me complain about it XD Bless I love him sometimes :')

Phew anyway, here is the list of images Im working on:
Dan, The Hot Jew
Human!Chica, Foxy, and Freddy.
Inverted, a new OC.
American Woman.

these are at least images I have started, although they may not be done yet I plan to upload them.

Bonus List, New years resolutions:
Get into uni
Get a girlfriend (or maybe boyfriend i dont know im confused)
play more video games, watch more films, broaden my mind
make more online friends (through art, youtube, games whatever)
Work on your art more, upload more to dA
Make more films and youtube videos
Be more productive
get all distinctions at college, it can be done
Have more fun
Think more, figure more out, stop being so insecure because you have to live with yourself forever so you better get accustomed to yourself and stop this fucking worrying please.

Kindest regards, Taliah.

AKA. SergeantWings.
  • Mood: Hopeless
  • Listening to: Thomas Was Alone- OST
  • Drinking: Water
Art Meme~ Nyuuuuuuu by AKA-Osuke
Art Meme~ Nyuuuuuuu
I got bored, looked through my old dA and jeez I forgot about these memes. And quilts, I forgot about quilts but no one does them anymore it so weird. So I thought I would take 20 minutes to just piss about on an old meme. Also there is only a tiny mild but of sexy sex stuff towards the end I just thought it was a bit overkill tagging it.

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haha im in college right now im gonna die

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oh! ;u;/ thank you so much for the watch! :heart:
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No need to thank me you silly boo, you! Your artwork is so amazing *w* Its least I could do!
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:iconblushuplz: i'll do my best!
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